.... Feels like forever !!

My God, it’s been a month since I last wrote!

A lot has happened over this month – and very good things, I must tell.

Firstly, I’m in love. Yes, head over high-heels, twinkling eyes, smiling all over in love. I’m in love with Formula One (and biased towards Ferrari). Ever since I heard the orgasmic roar of the Ferrari engine, saw the unabashed shine of red, witnessed a few “harmless” crashes and brilliant maneuvers, I felt instant and unbarring love! Then, as luck would have it, I saw the movie Rush. Have you seen it yet? Please go and see it if you haven’t. PLEASE! I think I also have realized the kind of men I incline towards. The Niki Lauda’s of the world. Maybe ‘coz I can hardly be like these brilliant perfectionists or maybe ‘coz they are just so amazingly anal about precision and logic. (I’m a bit surprised he’s not a Scorpion! :P)

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Second update is about the yummmmmmmmmy desserts I got to have while travelling last month. Very weird sounding in theory, but genius on the plate and palate! 

So, the first thing that deserves a special mention, and is by far the tastiest thing I’ve ever had, is Matcha Honey Toast

Matcha Honey Toast is basically a dense loaf of bread that is toasted with honey and dolloped with some ice-cream. The most gorgeous part of this dessert is taking your first bite into the luscious warm bread dipped with the cold texture of ice-cream. The medley is heart-winning and I’d lay a bet if you didn’t give out a happy moan! It was absolutely lip-smacking and divine…… (the sheer thought of it makes my mouth water!!!)

The Matcha Honey Toast

... And then the sides are cut and one can dig in... *slurp slurp*

The second and shockingly delicious one was the Red Bean Ice-cream. Now come on (red bean is almost Rajma), Rajma ki ice-cream?! Eeuu. But God be good! This was such a beautiful and enchanting ice-cream. I took the tiniest bite at first, ‘coz hello, it was Rajma! And believe you me, that was the last time my spoon was kind to this tantalizing little devil. Scoop after scoop, my taste-buds just never did tire! I wiped the plate clean and had such a happy child-like glow post it!

Red Bean Ice-cream- such a treat!

Once back, I had an immeasurably happy and satisfying experience at my dance show. I’ve been learning Kathak for some time now, and my spirit is on such a high while on stage. Loved every minute of it and felt so thankful to all the dear ones who came to cheer and make me feel so elated.

One of my favourites!

The Lord of Dance....

….And now, after all this is done with, I’m lying a little sick at home – but with such serenity. It’s been a good last few days.

I’ll be back soon with a very girly post. I’m too happy, and it calls for some girl time ;)..... So long then...

Much love,

L … 

.... To the One….!

She is my lucky star,

The one who brings me hope and joy, 

She makes me know the rights & wrongs

She's my angel with the most brilliant smile.

A role model, a woman of strength and love,

She inspires me to achieve and learn,

Her eyes are true, her heart so pure,

She’s my sister, and in the world my most dear!

Happy Birthday Kanchan….

You’re the reason for my reason, and the person who’s taught me everything good. 

Thank you for teaching me to give, and making me know how deep emotions can run. I love you for everything you are, for all that you inspire and teach me to be, and for all the love you give to me.

Thank you for existing. It means the world (and more) to me ! :)

Wish you a sparkling year, filled with abundant happiness, sky-high successes, overwhelming love, stronger bonds, and beautiful moments. Love you beyond words, my darling…. You’re God’s best ever gift to me.

A million hugs !!

Your mad li’l sister,

Lavi…

…. The Perfectionists are here..!!

            This one is for the very special sun-sign that has made such an enormous difference to my life!! Dear Virgo people…. You make my world beautiful, pure, dreamy, and still somehow so real! I don’t understand what it is about you people that instantly draws me to you…. Something magical and something so slap-slack honest…… To the sun-sign that’s given me my most adorable sister, my best friend, and sooooo many close friends…..

 Sometimes I cannot believe how I tolerate you people… you damn Virgo people…. How do you weave that net of purity and innocence, and then are so perfectly intelligent? What is that deadly potion you keep packed in your horribly beautiful true-telling eyes?

So here is how my relationship with almost all Virgos always starts. At first we are distanced, and safe from each other’s “chungul” (trap, you Angrez!). Yet there always has been an instant liking in my head for these far too honest, horrible at diplomacy fools! It’s probably their humour, their open way of laughing, or criticizing, or asking verrrrry technical questions in the middle of a mindless game. They’ve always had me there! I love how they are packed in this garb of shyness; it’s so much fun taking that right out and revealing the real them. That’s when the riot of their madness begins and one gets privy to the most amazing, and deep conversations.

Sidhvin, you were the shy guy in CG (who I cannot stop adoring ever), Chandni - the bitch in my building who refused to talk to me in the beginning (see how I trapped you and made you my best friend *devil grin*), Minoti, you always kept your distance in the start (and then let me in to know the amazzzzing you), Dhananjay – how could you not speak to a nut like me for an entire year?! (and no matter how less we get to speak now, you will always be a verrry dear fiend) ……Oh ya, the devious me was so enthusiastic to talk to my new partner in school that I scared the living lights off her in the 7^th grade… sorry Yasmin, my darling. Shreya came in one day, behaved all sophisticated and had me wondering what a moron like me would do with her if we were left alone, but Shreyu opened up and now we can hardly stop laughing when together.

Kanchan is a different case, it took us 16 years to attempt non-hostility towards each other, and my god, there has been no looking back since, with either of you’ll.

I know I keep telling you guys to stop being so true and gullible; it’s ‘coz I can never see you’ll hurt. It’s a horrible, helpless feeling. You’ll are very, very important to me. …. And I’ll tell you a secret here… I’ve always wanted to be like you’ll. Open, and honest, true and pure, brave even…. :)

The traits I find most amusing and yet lovable about you’ll:

• “Eh wow, this top/shirt is so comfortable. Let me buy 2 more pieces of the same”… (I give a dirty look here)… “arrey I’ll buy in different colors ya”…. My question – can’t you just buy different styles instead? *silence*
• You think – you are perfect and uber-organized….Me think – Bitch….. you’re right *sulking face*
• Not that the world matters a lot to you, but if you feel you’re looking nice in something, you will wear it every alternate day, and let all else rot in your closet… argggggghhhhh
• If you do not like a person in the first go, god help, you will never like that person
• Boy, those food reservations! Why the hell do you not “try” out weird food? And smelling everything is NOT necessary. It may also LOOK okay, but TASTE great… ever wondered???? …………….Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
• Yes, I know saving money is important. I’m trying to be responsible. Till then, shut up and save for me! :p
• LOL I suddenly remembered, why are you enemies of expression of love. All of you are sooooo awkward expressing love, and accepting others’ expressions of love in the first go.
• Social awkwardness…. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
• You are ALL … and I mean each one of you… is MOTHER TERESA!
• Love, love, lovvvve your sense of humour!
• Truth is beauty and beauty is truth…. And hell hath no fury like a Virgo scorned…..if one lies to you sharp sharks, you’d tear them to shreds….
• Smelling good is of utmost importance…. You, and all around you… hai na? :):)
• You hate shopping, and yet work so hard shopping for me… makes me feel on top of the world, ‘coz I know just how much emotion, effort, and love went in into buying that lovely gift you got….

I love you guys… my most favourite and most treasured set….. 

Happy birth-sign months (Aug and Sept)….. Stay ever so amazing!

Hugs – lots and lots of them….

FYI….. I love how Linda Goodman defines you… it’s almost like she knows you personally…. Read up when you wanna grin lots :)

http://galileogst.tumblr.com/post/5908419469/virgo-woman-by-linda-goodman

http://alexoloughlinfanclubforum.activeboard.com/t30278182/how-to-recognize-virgo-the-virgo-man-by-linda-goodman/

Love,

Lavi...

.... Shhh… It’s about Shhhoes !!

** WARNING:
1. This one will give you lots of knowledge and insight into the Shoe World
2. It has lovely pictorial illustrations
3. Admit it, most of you guys and tom-boyish girlfriends of mine will squirm and make faces, but reading it will be fun… ;)

Here we go!! xxx

My mom says I always loved shoes, even as a little mad girl with two plaits. I began realizing the intensity of this love when I waited to get to my 13^th birthday, the year I was promised I would be allowed to walk in heels. I wore some really ugly platform sandals, and fell at a cross junction while walking, but boy-oh-boy, didn’t I love feeling so high!! Never looked back, and never lost an opportunity to wear heels since.

Black Beauties and my perpetual back-up shoes for work

Custom-made for my feet!! My sister gifted me these super high and exxxtremely comfortable lovelies for my Birthday :)

The only Wedge Heels I own.... 

Sheer, Sky-High & unbelievably Comfortable. I've danced in these!!

Two of my prettiest pairs! Love Royal Blue and lourrrve Leopard Prints!

My flat loafers! For the "field days" at work

Feeling Blue?!

With my tiny frame of 5’3.5”, I really need heels to elevate my look, and sometimes add a very important dimension to my personality. They are such up-lifters (pun unintended :P) I tell you.

Adore these Leopard Printed 4.5" heels from Zara! Guaranteed spunk for every outfit!

The reliable Charles & Keith that make me tall and happy!

I LOVE THIS ONE! Dull Gold, Beautiful, and Soft!

Very few people who know me would know that for a while I seriously thought of learning the art of shoe-making, to create the perfect heel. I did a lot of research then and was introduced to (GOD) Manolo Blahnik much before the SATC craze caught up. I realized how tough it was to make shoes as a hobby while one was working full time and teaching kids on weekends. Gave up that idea soon enough. Then, when I began watching SATC, and witnessed Carrie’s love for Manolos, I knew I wasn’t crack – there were many more like me out there!!

Elegant statements! And HIGH of-course ;)

The colors...... Vibrant and fun! 

I call this... The Circle of Excellence

Manolo’s story touched a deep chord in my heart, and sort of helped me appreciate and seek perfection in work. Set out to become a stage set designer, this miracle-maker was suggested by Vogue’s then editor-in-chief, Diana Vreeland, to instead concentrate on making shoes. Manolo got obsessed with creating perfect shoes, and began paying closer attention to balance and craft. Manolo till date carves out each heel with his own hands.

This achievement is all the more remarkable given that Blahnik is solely responsible for the design and prototype of every shoe that bears his name. Working alone without apprentices or assistants, he sketches his shoes, chisels the wooden lasts on which they are moulded and sculpts the heels. He then supervises their production and even sketches the illustrations for his advertising campaigns. He has achieved all this without any formal training in shoe-making. “I didn’t need it,” Blahnik told his friend Michael Roberts only half-jokingly in the late 1970s, “because I’ve got the best taste in the world.”

I’ve read almost all his interviews and and here are my favourite lines from this man who spares no detail:
“I have the advantage of study. I’ve been studying the art of the shoe… for over twenty years. I know every process. I know how to cut and cut away here (the side of the shoe) and still make it so that it stays on the foot. And the secret of toe cleavage, a very important part of the sexuality of the shoe. You must only show the first two cracks. And the heel. Even if it’s twelve centimetres high it still has to feel secure – and that’s a question of balance. That’s why I carve each heel personally myself – on the machine and then by hand with a chisel and file, until it’s exactly right.”

How can one not fall in love… with the man… and his creations!

FYI…… I haven’t yet purchased a single pair of Manolos or Louboutins (another of my favourites) yet. The reason behind it is very emotional and strong. These brands motivate me to be able to afford lots of the best. They define luxury, heights, passion, souls (some red soles), moments, occasions, power, success,

and love. The stories of the men behind these makes me want to learn and create the best. And, although I can afford select pieces of the beauties these Gentlemen craft, I don’t want to buy them today coz I’ll end up worshipping the shoes instead of enjoying them. Hence, my aspiration is to have a closet full of these lovelies. Pray I get there soon :)

.... Doobie, Do-Be, Do !!

Have been introspecting of late, and since a new phase of life has just begun, a to-do list is necessary, ain't it? ;)
Some basic, some complicated... Tasks are tasks... And, here is my list of things I hope I get working on......

1. Drink lots of water:
So, here’s what........... I don’t understand the purpose of water. This tasteless, odourless, and colourless liquid has had me baffled about its importance ever since I began studying science. However, I have experienced how amazing, healthy, and weirdly cleansed of toxics I feel when I drink lots of water. And hello, my skin and hair show it too! Not that I eat/drink any tox, but the amount of chili and spices I consume daily must burn my li’l stomach up! Hence, I need desperately to drink lots, and lots, of water…. FYI… Acidity really gets the better of me, so a doctor once mentioned to me how half a lime squeezed into one litre of water is the best and most easy way to combat the devil. I’ve tried it, and I can’t even begin to tell you how magically it works. 

2. Be the “right-NOW” girl:
Well, I have this tendency of procrastinating small things about and for me that are important. Like say speaking/meeting a friend when I want to… One should call/meet as soon as one thinks of the darling friend, right? However, I usually wait till I miss the person unbearably, or unless it’s absolutely necessary for me to meet up.
A friend of mine adheres to this “let me finish this then I’ll go” theory for even visiting the washroom while working. Sorry dear pee, you can wait, work cannot! Phew!! So until it’s beyond control or her work is complete, no investing time in the loo.
God, don’t let me get there yet. :|

3. Be financial savvy:
Yes, Very Important… I wish I was smart with money. Or at least had the zest to learn. Alas, I’m a hopeless when it comes to keeping track of what dough comes from where, and where all it eventually goes… *sob sob*… I tried a couple of times, but well… errr…ummm…
Moving on… I’ve decided to save some money (only to spend all of it in one go :( ), and I’ve decided to maintain records of my daily expenditure. This feels like a New Year (and unachievable) Resolution diary entry suddenly. *hmph*

4. Not let people take advantage of me:
I feel sorry about this, but of late I’ve come to realize how some people only think of you when they need their work done. I may have been like that too, and I genuinely feel terrible if I have, ‘coz as much as you need friends and colleagues to fill in for you, help you with write-ups and presentations, listen to your emotional lows, they must also not just be contacted for such stuff. A random hello, and laughing at old jokes feels really nice. And thus, as much as I love knowing how much you need me, I’d like knowing how you’d still remember me on a normal other day. Point being, need to know when to put my foot down, and not get taken advantage of. 

5. Make and stick to routine:
I’m straying. Haven’t been to the gym in weeks, and I don’t even feel bad about it. Also, with my extremely irregular blog posts, you’ve kind of figured how good I am with routines, na? :P…. So that’s the thing I got to get good at. Being a regular. 

6. Experiment with fashion:
Clothes I’m good with. Bags and shoes too! But when it comes to accessories, tdinnnng it goes all so down!! I have a huge collection of accessories – earrings, belts, neckpieces, chunky and stunning bangles and cuffs, and on idle Sundays, I bring them out trying each piece, matching and contrasting them with my clothes. But when the time comes to actually step out wearing it, I feel I’m very over-dressed, or a tad too accessorized, and then… here comes the sad part… I go right back to my pearl or solitaire earrings, my dainty little neckpiece, and a watch. The rest is all put back in the box it came from. Need to experiment, don’t I? 

While I get going on my list, I’ll leave you to think of your to-do items…

So long then….
Ciao!!

.... ABC…. And last comes Z!!

This theme comes from one of my favourite blogs – lambandblonde.blogspot.com and is completely dedicated to me. He Ha Ha Ha!!! Told ya, it’s going to be a chic-y post this time. And the chosen “chic” is ME, Me, me! :P

When I saw this on Kim’s blog, I answered them all in my head. So now that I have my own blog, I thought “why not”. Here’s sharing a lot of me and the things I do. It’ll say some stuff that you’d never have guessed and some that are so obvious. Here goes…. A to Z about me. *toothy smile*


Adjective: The one I use most often is Amazzzzing!! (Yes I stretch it just like that when I truly feel something is all that good. Reminds you of the Caaaaar ad, anyone? LOL)

Bed Size: Massive. Mine is truly a “bed” room.

Chores that you hate doing: Anything to do with banks and bank documents. That’s my sister’s job! :p

Dogs or Cats: I'm definitely a cat person. They are sooooo regal and proud, like they own the world, you included! I also find dogs very cute. As far as they are clean and friendly!

Essential start to your day: A shower! I love them….. which is followed by getting ready in super speed (coz I always plan my mornings with cut-to-cut timings), and a nice bowl of hot milk and cornflakes. Also, I have this incessant need to smell good (what with my bitch sense of smell), and be around people who smell divine too. Hence a nice dab of perfume is essential as well.

Favorite color: Sea green and Coral. But when it comes to clothes, the whites and the blacks literally call out to me. I love them!

Gold or Silver: Gold, mostly. But certain things look beautiful in steel/silver. I’m kind of on the fence on this one.

Height: 5' 3 and 1/2"…… and how I wish I was a few inches taller. But then, God made Manolos and Louboutins :D

Instruments you play: Errr… Ummm… None. I wish I had learned the piano though. Still want to, and perhaps will, very soon! Hey, but then I can sing and I know dance… does that count? :p

Job title: LOL!!! Manager! Why I laugh, that’s a long story… so maybe we’ll discuss this in person :D

Knight in Shining Armour: If it’s anything like Batman, woo-hoo!! But yes, I admire chivalrous men who are dependable and help a woman. Sometimes we girls don’t want to ask, but just see if you’d help without making us feel stupid.

Live: I live in Bombay. And I’d want to live in London once. Yeah, that’s what I’d want.

Mc Donalds, M&Ms, Marshmallows, Manolos, Mango Ice-cream, My Sister, My Mommy, Milu, My Chachu, Magical Moments, and My Daddy: All the love!

Nicknames: Lavie, Lav (sounds like love), Lavi & Lovey, Lola, Latu, Lavu, Doofie, Dagny, Laeita, LK. Also, there are various affectionate names that my people call me (you don't think I'm really going to tell those, do you?)

Obsessions: Pedicures at Nail Bar & clean-ups at Blush, perfumes, pretty clothes, SHOES, bags, neatness and fragrance around me, organized desktop with perfect folder names and dates for each document, Coke, and Aamir Khan!! *do.not.judge…. LOL*

Pet peeves: Incorrect Grammar, and if my morning routine is disturbed. Also, not getting a rickshaw or a cab when I need one! The stubborn and dirtttty cows in my lane too!! Grrrrrr

Quote: “It is better to be looked over than to be over-looked!”

Reading: Currently am reading A Clash of Kings (Book 2 in the Game of Thrones series). For the books I’ve read and loved, here’s an entire blog post!

Siblings: I have an older sister who I cannot even breathe without. I love her. She is my life and my soul. If I had to sum up some of my feelings for her in one song, “Because you love me” would do it!

Time you wake up: 8am on weekdays, ‘coz of work, and 10am on weekends.

Underestimate: No one, really. But I do get underestimated a lot, and quite like surprising the idiots who do ;)
Oh and I remembered, I usually underestimate the bad in people. Need to learn to be clever!

Vegetable you hate: I don’t really hate any vegetable. Used to hate tomatoes before, but now it just depends on how the veggies are cooked and seasoned. I hate a lot of fruits though. Actually I hate all melons, wyaaak!

What makes you run late: Um, everything, and anything! LOL. Well, the whole idea of standing pretty and waiting for someone is not my thing at all, so I rather reach late. But yes, I’m quite jinxed with reaching on time. Except when there are important/ or client meetings! I never am late for those.

X-Rays: I’ve had a couple of medical check-ups, for no reason at all…. Well, as mandatory processes in school, and as joining formality at work!

Yummy food you make: Lots of good stuff! I like cooking and I personally think I’m a fabulous cook! Hahaha! On a serious note, I like making Italian food and desserts (especially chocolate fudge and mousse). I also make lotsa fun sandwiches and starters, but cannot cook basic Indian food. At All. Dal-Rice type… :(

Zoo Animals: Lion!!! My absolute favourite, but not in a zoo haan. They aren’t meant for those cages. The majestic, beautiful and utterly clever kings! My mom tells me I always screamed “Lionnnn” as my favourite animal even when I was in Kindergarten. Some preferences never change ;)

That’s the A-Z about me. Tell me yours now! :D

Ciao!!

.... Feels like Thanksgiving...

Such a feeling of elation! When your loved ones show just how happy they are for you. Their pride when you do well, and the look in their eye when they see you achieve! Some people make you feel like home, and the way they care makes you want to do well, just so they can boast and gloat a bit more. It’s like feeling owned, and it’s a beautiful feeling.

These aren’t people who will curse and yell if you fail. They will silently feel helpless for you. They will make sure you never fall again, and they will do a fantastic job in bringing back your confidence. Such are the people that deserve to get the right of owning your heart and soul. The true well-wishers! Those that are protective about you and yet will not challenge your independent streak! Those that want to yell at you for being stupid, and will go right ahead but do it in the nicest possible way. The same ones who’d love telling you “I told you so”, and yet will laugh when they tell you that!!

This blog post isn’t long. It’s just to say Thank You to the lovely bunch of people who silently prayed for me, guided me, told me about their own traumas so I wouldn’t feel alone, and those who had full faith in me, even when I didn’t.

Thank you for pampering me, laughing with me, for not judging me, and for being just the support that I needed.

I feel gifted for having amazing people like you in my life, and yes, a big fat Thank You for making my new start so gifted and fun….. big hug!!

Thank you, all of you, who read these posts, and ping me, or call me to ask what is going on. It means a lot :)

My New Diary, Pen, Coffee-Cup and Wallet

To make me more organized, wiser, more alert, and wayyy richer ;)

Much Love,
Lavi

P.S. It’s now high time I stop sounding sentimental, and put up some nail art type of stuff on the blog… muhahahaha… beware all you pretentious, intelligent ones…… *devil grin*

.... Lost, and Found...!

Feels like ages since I last wrote. The past two months have been so extremely busy, and so full of changes and challenges. There were ends, and there were beginnings. There were deaths, break-downs, and then somehow, in togetherness, there were new-found strengths.

The Ends......

When people you are so used to having around go away, it gives you a jolt. It makes you wish you had found the time, and the right expressions of love. It makes you feel bad for not having told them what they meant to you, for not having spent that weekend just talking to each other. It makes you realize how dependent you are, and how independent you will have to learn to be. It makes you lose faith - in comforts, and in God.

.... Then you see the others who come and hug you, and weep with the same feelings as you. They know how you must feel; they feel so helpless that they cannot bring you back what you loved and lost.

.... Their feelings for you brings back the faith sometimes. It brings courage, and hope. It makes you appreciate what you still have, and know how much you treasure it. 

Deaths sometimes bring in so much appreciation for life!

.... And then some Beginnings

Talking of Beginnings......Having gone through the whole roller coaster experiencing highs of extreme self-confidence to the under-the-earth’s-pit lows in terms of self-doubt, I realized one thing – when you’re out there chasing your dreams, a million things go your way, a hundred probably do not, and that is when you got to hold on to your priorities and let go some unimportant stuff. How one decides that, I guess it’s your gut feel that just makes you know! Also at such times, being selfish makes you understand exactly what you want from life.

Choosing hardships over comfort is never ever easy. Especially when the comfort comes with a bag of goodies. And no matter how bad your situation is, once you are comfortably settled into it, it’s the toughest thing to lift your rested and warm arse and risk it all away. Thankfully, I’m not a very scared person that way, and always manage to find the courage and bravado to embrace adventure. But yes, there were those moments in my head when I wondered if I was making a huge mistake. It may be a tad tooooo drastic and OTT to compare it to domestic violence that women get used to in an atmosphere that makes them “feel” settled and secure still, but you get my point right?

The feeling of wonder and that slight fear still stays in my heart as I’m about to put myself to the refreshing adrenaline of a new challenge, but my mind and heart are both in agreement …. And I think that is a pretty good sign.

All in all, I’ve come to realize how life is full of negotiations like that (not compromises, mind you) – you get together your wish list, hear out life’s plans and whoever else comes up with one, and then ….*well then*…. Then it’s all about getting what’s priority and letting go what’s not ;).

….. so long then :)

P.S.: Remember, I mentioned the tarot reading on those dark months of the year? :) Yes, we were at it, and are now hopefully moving to better phases

…. Candid

In days of pen & paper, and when the blogging and/or Microsoft Word bug hadn’t bitten me yet, armed with a green Add Gel, I had written this one…..
Thankfully, I have an incessant habit of writing the date, time and a slight encrypted/abbreviated reference or starting point for things I scribble. Thus, what you read below is written by me on an idle Monday morning at 10am on the 25^th of February, 2008. This was the morning after my conversation with a friend who spoke about the fear of losing her real self while trying to put up appropriate façades.

And one more thing before you read on….. Pardon my amateur style… it was years ago!!

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The Masks I Wear………..

I have a lot of faces, 

Don’t remember which one is true..

I bring them out one by one,

So life can get me through.

There’s bravery, and cowardice, and malice, and strength,

All of them tucked in a box..

I reveal them by turn and occasion,

But within me they’ve now begun to tox.

I’ve forgotten what I would be,

Had the faces not been around..

Got no idea in my head of who I am,

Inside there’s no light or sound.

The masks are beginning to wear me off,

I’m scared I’ll lose control..

Have lost myself somewhere,

I don’t know what shall stay galore.

I now try hard to drop the shield,

But not before I’ve paid a price..

I’ve lost all that I cared for, and was mine…..

Now all that’s left… are my Masks and my Lies!!

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P.S. I’m very shy of sharing my very personal thoughts; hence, the blog-post title.

.... Shimmer, Shine, Sparkle !!!

Bow-led

Swoo-oo-oon

My D-I-Y Project Inspiration for Xmas 2012

Jodhpur Chronicals

When Beauty meets Grace meets Strength

Birthday Sparkle :):)

Elec - Eclectic

Shimmering & Bubbly

What's not to love about Miu Miu's ?!

The Lavender

And a Glowy Bride......

Skip a heart-beat & bow to these Manolos

Eye-catcher

Rings a Spark

Beats

Cannot miss something so peach and lovely na ;)

So not scared of heights!! Some glitter for the Lady, please.

TLE - Xmas 2012

Shimmery, Shiny & so beautifully Sparkly

SATC Love <3

Ever since Lakme came out with the tagline of "Shimmer, Shine, Sparkle!", it stuck in my head... I fell in love with the words, their ring, and the meanings they carry. These beautiful pictures are my take mostly on glitter and shimmer, 'coz in my opinion, shine and sparkle mean so much more. (strength, intelligence and triumph.... Don't you think?)

A lot of pictures in this post are from my personal archives; some clicked with my phone camera, and some of things that belong to me.... I'll let you figure that part ;)

Have a sparkling week ahead!! 

…. The Fool & The High Priestess

I always find such calm and peace of mind in Tarot.
… And why wouldn’t I? It has such beauty and mystery attached to it. Like an angel with this sense of tranquil.

Tarot happened to me all of a sudden, and kind of like it happens to all – as part of a fun experiment. Now, the point is that I do not take horoscopes, predictions, crystal balls or coffee-cup readings very seriously; and the fundamental behind going for a reading or knowing my luck quotient for the day is simple – if it is good, I feel happy, and if it is not, I forget about it, only remembering a statuary warning, if there is one there, and go on with my day.

A friend knew how to read Tarot cards, and all of us girls were so thrilled to get our readings done. When my turn came, I was completely fascinated by the things I heard – things I would never have told a soul. She also pointed out certain months of the year that have never failed to be horrible and dark (I was pretty shocked at the accuracy of this, and let me add, the run continues even till date), told me how I would eventually shift careers (at that time I was in college… happily-or-not studying engineering), and even as much as defined me as a person.

Believe it or not, I had fallen for the charm of Tarot.

Years later, and once I passed out of college, I narrated this incident to one of my favourite Professors (and a very dear friend). Call this luck, coincidence, or whatever, she smiled and asked me if I wanted to understand the science behind it all, and learn the art of Tarot. Quite obviously, I jumped at it (despite knowing the amount of hard-work, dedication and hours of practice that lay ahead of me).

You know what the most beautiful part of this learning was, I completely understood and agreed with the science and logic involved in it. Having always been intuitive, Tarot agreed pretty well with me. That is exactly and simply what Tarot is – Science and Intuition.

One question I answer very often is: why do people pick certain cards….
Here’s the humble logic behind it:
Now, we are all part of a universe that has celestial bodies, planets, nature, etc with energies of their own. Agreed? Hence, you have an energy of your own; and a sort of aura around you also exists due to this energy. When good things are happening or are about to happen, you have a good aura; when the seas are rough, your aura tells the tale. Similarly, tarot cards are also objects and since they are made of matter (atoms, bonds, energy – remember school?), there is also a certain energy they possess.
Hence, when you are in a happy state of mind, or happiness is going to knock your doorstep, you tend to pick out cards that carry similar energy. In times of sickness, worry, or anxieties, those cards with possibly darker meanings get picked by you (and that’s why one must never go for a reading when unwell).
See? That’s how easy you make it for the Tarot reader to understand your state of mind and predict your future J

Thus, anyone with this much of basic scientific reasoning can tell you what the cards are saying. Once you have studied each card and it’s strictly “textual” meaning, the next part, and the slightly more complex one (perhaps the reason why every one of us cannot be a Tarot reader), is use of Intuition. A Tarot Reader has to be naturally gifted with strong instincts and be sharp to spot certain things that appeal to him/her. For instance, I was once reading a card that clearly indicated turmoil, struggle, and the probability of a quarrel. Somehow, my eye kept looking at this little antenna like structure somewhere in the background that stood out to me for some reason. Every time I looked at the card, that’s what I’d see first. And then it hit me - that the quarrel could be with a person/friend involved in media.
(Psst… for the record and throwing modesty out the window, that one turned out bang on!! And the person was mentally prepared, and thus calm, during the incident)

Now every time I need to pacify my restless mind and get some reassurance (which happens verrrry rarely, I must add), I open a deck of my favourite cards and just see them. In case the agony in my head exceeds a certain limit, I read Tarot Blogs and take online readings. It gives me such relief and instant happiness. And that is ‘coz (thank God for this…) my end results in tarot always show such brave and joyful cards.

Want to see a few of these gorgeous cards? J